Hey everyone, I have a boyfriend, we've been together for 1.5 years. I really love him, he's the first person that made me feel loved and accepted all my quirks. But to be honest I have a crush on someone else...
We met in a bar, talked the whole evening. I noticed that he liked me, by the end of the evening he held my hand and that felt like a dream. He was very polite and didn't rush anything. One day he asked me if I wanted to grab drinks with his friends, i thought why not and got ready. We came to his friend's place opened some wine and started talking. There was a lot of laughing and just good vibes. His friends got up to smoke and left us on the couch. I don't know what came over me, but our eyes locked and we kissed... He grabbed me by my waist, we started making out it was unreal. The door opened and we quickly stopped, but I know that his friends knew everything. I mean they definitely noticed the hickeys on our necks. Somehow that felt right, but at the same time I knew that I love my boyfriend.
A couple of days have passed and I still don't know what to do and how to act. My boyfriend is the best, yes he's not really my type if we're talking about looks, but we don't argue, we have a lot in common, but something just doesn't feel right. On the other hand with my crush I feel like I can do everything, he motivates me and he's just my type. I don't know whether to stay in a good, healthy relationship or risk everything but try and build something with a guy that seems perfect in every way.
Please help me! At this moment every suggestion, every advice will help me a lot.