I had sex with a man for 4 years, we now haven’t spoke in 6 months. There was an obvious sexual attraction, he was having problems with his relationship, I was having problems with mine. We both agreed we could never be in a relationship although he says “if things were different, he would have me for the rest of his life” (claims he doesn’t want to be a stepfather) he often would tell me he loved me, what seemed to be so intimate. I soaked it up quickly, given my situation where my now ex was cheating on me and I was pregnant with his child, I soaked it alllll in.
I had obviously left my ex, but he just recently left his ex, about 6 months ago. I don’t contact him and he doesn’t me. I’m deeply hurt by this. I miss him so much and I have no one to tell about the situation because it’s a bit fucked up. I fell for a man who may or may not have truly cared for me, when it seems he really did. Was it love or lust? I need some input because all I want is some form of closure from him and not sure I will have the balls to ask for it. This way gives me a peace of mind.