Hi, I'll try to make this as short as I can.
Ok so I went on a trip recently to visit some friends. I've gotten along really well with one of the guys for a while and I liked him but always repressed it because he was older than me so I assumed I didn't have a chance, but it's always been in my head. I'm 23 he's 34 for reference. I have very strong feelings for him and I realize that even more after visiting him, that I am in love with him. I can honestly say I haven't ever felt this way.
At the end of the trip his sister tells me he's about to ask someone out that he's been interested in. She's 10 years older than him. I do not know how to handle that and anytime someone asks me how the trip is I start crying. I can't even talk about it at all... I have a literal pain in my chest when I think about it. I don't see a point to living or life ever being enjoyable again without him.
I also feel scared and worried for him... He has some very very bad past trauma and inner turmoil that he's told me about. He feels like no one will ever understand how he feels. And considering what he's been through it makes sense. I'm worried that he'll end up with someone who can't take care of him, not that I think I can... But because he feels like no one will ever understand him anyways, he'll settle. I don't want that to happen to him.
I'm very confused and don't know what to do...