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My husband and I have a pretty decent sex life. It's often, but we can sometimes be a bit lazy when it's been a long day. About a year ago, I found out that he was following a ton of porn accounts on every social media account that he owns. I started snooping after feeling uneasy about his time in the bathroom. After discussing it, he deleted the accounts. I tried to go along with it to be the "cool wife," even though it honestly made me feel inadequate and also disgusted by him. He insisted that they were old accounts that he had no interest in and deleted them, though.

A few nights ago, I was trying to find a bookmarked website on our laptop when I saw a few porn pages bookmarked. Apparently, his phone somehow linked with the laptop, because I realized I was in Mobile bookmarks. I didn't outright let him know what I found, but I sat him down and finally told him truly how him watching porn made me feel (without accusing him of anything). He started to get slightly defensive, but didn't. By the end of the conversation, I'd gathered that he wasn't watching it anymore.

Today, I was going to see if a picture that I tagged him in on IG shared, because my phone was being dumb. Instead, I saw that he had recently followed nearly 100 more accounts than when I saw his profile last. There were nearly 100 porn accounts that weren't there after our conversation recently. In fact, some of them weren't even porn accounts. They were normal women's accounts who happened to wear skimpy outfits sometimes. A couple of them were girls who are local strippers.

I am so sick, physically and with the relationship. I'm not sure if I should tell him what I found and try to have a civil conversation (again) about it and try to work through it, sleep in separate rooms until he gets it together, or just leave for a little while. I know this is so drawn out, but I'm at a loss. I cannot compete with the looks of these women, and I don't want to feel like I have to.

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User article | emotional affair, digital affair, social media

“Husband doesn't care about sex”

My husband says he doesn't care about sex, and how he could care less about it. He's got a low sex drive etc. However his Google history says otherwise - it's all pornhub. I'm the one who always starts it, at least 90 percent of the time. I've suggested all kinds of things to spice things up because it's the same every time. Basically there's very little foreplay unless it's me to him. In the winter time he was home so I took control and just started doing it and trying to not care. Well than I saw that if we didn't do anything, if I didn't start it, he'd wait literally till I walked out the door, then it was right to pornhub. Like if he's horny why not just say something? Like not once has he ever just tried to please me with nothing in return unless again I'm in the middle of my own time on my own, then sometimes he will. Usually he comes in, gets his phone and leaves and goes on his way. I'm not sure if it's worth mentioning but I've had a big weight loss and I'm not sure if it's me getting in my head or not. But I'm starting to wonder if he's just not sexually attracted to me anymore? I'm not sure what to think or do or is it normal I'd say up until xmas it was 2-3 months in between. Since xmas it was almost every other day when I took control since I had enough of months in between, but again I got tired of being the only one to say anything. And yes he does knows it bugs me and here we are still. I should add the only one day I can count he will start it is valentine day which makes me even more mad. But, as I said above, in the winter I took over and it wasn't to bad. I bought us a sexy game and stuff. We never have played it and when I took it out to play he's like meh and put it away and we just did usual sex.

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“He watches pornography”

My bf and I have know each other since we were little kids and we been tg for 3 years and 8 months and I have seen in his phone history a lottt of porn. I talked to him about watching it that I really don't want u watching porn there's no need to watch it if we have sex and all he can say is okay and seems like it's no big deal but it is for me bc he has asked me why can't I do stuff like her( meaning like why can't I do what the porn girls do) and when he says that it makes me feel worthless and that I don't do a good job. I told him when he says that stuff to me it make me feel I'm not good enough. He tells me I'm good enough and I do good anyway last night I told him again plz stop watching it I told him how I felt like he watches porn but denies us being intimate he's not in the mood but he watches porn and i just don't know what to do he just keeps doing it and seems like he doesn't care about how I feel.

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