I have been aware for many years that my wife was having affairs. What I was not aware of is that this has been going on for all 36 years of our marriage. I have confronted her on several occasions and never have received a straight answer. Several months ago, she decided to tell me everything. Way more than I wanted to hear. She informed me that she started the affairs a few weeks after we got married, and has continued until several months ago. I asked her why, and she told me I could not give her what she really wanted. She said I have a small penis. When asked why she didn't tell me when she decided to have her first affair, she said she enjoyed the thrill of sneaking around. Needless to say, I have been devastated over this. She tells me she still loves me, and doesn't want to end our marriage. What do I do? How do I proceed? I'm at a total loss, can't sleep, barely eat, and I dropped from 247 lbs to 145 lbs. It eats on me constantly, and has left me unable to focus on the things in my life that are important.