I started dating someone (we'll call him Wyatt) who I thought was a perfect match for me just about two months ago. I know it's a short relationship, but all relationships have to start somewhere. We were perfect straight from the start, both of us fairly inexperienced in relationships. Then, coronavirus came around and I haven't seen him in two months.
During the quarantine period, I've started talking to some of my friends, most of which are guys. In addition to them being guys, I managed to stay close friends with an ex-boyfriend (we'll call him Ben) from a year ago. We are very close and have similar hobbies and interests, but there's also always something we can talk about. I seem to have run out of things to talk about with my boyfriend, so we just haven't been talking. As I was talking to my ex, I felt like I might be catching feelings for him again. I broke up with him because I didn't think I was ready for a relationship. He respected that, and that's why we're friends now.
Now that I'm talking to him and I feel ready for an actual relationship, I fear that I've started to like him again. At first, I thought that maybe it was just a crush, like the ones you have in elementary school, but I don't think it is anymore. I've been in love before, but I don't think I'm in love with Wyatt. The last and only time I felt anything like love was in an abusive relationship. I wish I had a different experience, but unfortunately, that seems to be the only time I've been in love with someone. I started feeling this same feeling with Ben and I'm rather ashamed of myself. I don't know what to do anymore because I'm so awful at breakups. And since this won't get to be in person, it's going to be even tougher if I do choose to break up with him. What should I do?